How Being in Recovery Has Changed Me and My Practice

I began my journey in sobriety lost. My relationships with family, friends, and work were in pieces. I had been spinning out of control and felt isolated and alone. The removal of alcohol from my life gave me a completely new perspective. I could think clearly and be present at all times. I was no longer in a rush or anxious and paranoid. I could think, feel, and appreciate the little things in life again. Life was no longer terrifying and depressing, it was exciting and full of opportunity to connect with others and be happy. 

As I continued in recovery, I began to value time and conversation more. It allowed me to spend more quality time with my family while I was completely present. They could see it, and they loved it. My family was more expressive to me and shared more. They wanted me with them more. We reconnected in ways I never thought possible again, sometimes through deep conversation, sometimes just going for a walk and being close to one another.

Recovery also allowed me to see and embrace true friendships. Friendships that had no agenda other than caring for and about each other. The conversations were genuine and the support through all of life’s difficulties and successes was real. It wasn’t always about discussing problems and finding solutions. Sometimes it was just listening and offering a presence.

Drastic changes happened in my relationships in my practice as well. I spent more time with my patients talking and understanding their needs rather than just trying to get through the day. My staff also felt more comfortable around me. We spent more time together and were able to discuss treatments as well as life in general. I began to look forward to seeing them and my patients. I could finally appreciate what I had originally been striving so hard to achieve. A good safe work and home life seemed unattainable previously; however, sobriety allowed me to be fully present and appreciate connection with people close to me.

Along with the better connection with family, friends, staff and patients, I’ve also noticed a more patient mindset. I have never been one to sit around and wait.

Early bird gets the worm, grab the bull by the horns, you know the sayings. However, sobriety has taught me patience. I am ok doing everything, but also ok doing nothing. I am aware I cannot solve all my problems this second and now I’m ok with that. I can just “be”.

Sobriety has given me my life and valuable relationships back. It has allowed me to experience happiness and caring through relationships with others, whether we are active or just sitting on a bench enjoying our time together. I can now be someone others can rely on and feel confident that I can be clear and present for them. It is truly a gift. 

A Grateful Recovering Alcoholic